December 3rd, 2012
Monday
3:33am
Good
morning! I’m off to a rolling start this morning! Got coffee made, and my blog
finished from yesterday, and gonna walk this AM around 5:30am. I’ve got a
Doctor’s appointment at 1:15 today in Monroe, so I’ll have to take my daily nap
around 10am, so looks like I’ll only have an hour or a little better to sew
this morning at work, but if I get in there and sew at home this morning, I
should get a little bit done.
I have no
idea what to eat today…. Yesterday I
did so good, I want to continue that 1200 calorie count today, so it’s going to
take a little planning I think. I’m going to have oatmeal for breakfast (200),
coffee (300) and walk off 210 calories = 290, so I’ll have 910 left to eat all
day today, which means Brian and I might be able to go out to eat today,
although his birthday is Wednesday, and we will be going out to eat then too,
so, I don’t know just yet. I’m thinking maybe a tuna salad from Thompson’s
would be good, probably 500 calories….
6:21pm
Well, none
of that happened with the food. I woke Brian up at 5am this morning, seeing as
I had planned on us walking this morning. He was sleeping so good, that he didn’t
want to get out of bed this morning, even when I put Mike & Mike on, and it
took him a good 20-30 minutes to finally finagle his way into the living room,
and ask for a cup of coffee.
Brian said
he’d walk at 6:30, so I planned on walking at 6, but then 6 oclock came, and I
got to thinking about how much better it would be to walk at night, after all
the days’ stressors had come, and how nice it would be to walk those off on the
treadmill this afternoon, so we decided to walk when we got home this evening.
I got
hungry, and got up to make some oatmeal, and offered Brian some as well, though
he said he didn’t want any. But when I got in the kitchen, he yelled for toast,
and that sounded good to me too, so I buttered up 8 slices of bread, and threw
them in the oven. Skillet toast is better, but my pan was dirty, so we had
regular toast this morning. 4 slices
(300) plus country crock (100) + muscadine jelly (200) + coffee (300) =900
calories this morning, so I wasn’t off to a very good start.
I took a shower,
and got dressed, wearing my purple silk shirt, purple vest, and a pair of
jeans. I don’t have any casual shoes, so I put on my Bearpaw black boots, even
though it was already sweltering outside, and figured I could borrow some of
Mama’s shoes when I got to her house.
We made it
to work, late….. and Uncle Jay and Mama were discussing the days’ schedule.
Brian took Uncle Jay to pick up the van, while me and Mama drank coffee, and
discussed some of the medicines I found in the Natural Medicine book for
Bipolar Disorder.
In case you
didn’t know, Brian and I are planning to start a family, so we are taking every
precaution, and that includes praying, working with my psychiatrist, social
worker, and OB-GYN doctor. I was warned, when I started taking Lithium, that I
definitely wouldn’t be able to take that while pregnant, and possibly wouldn’t
be able to take Geodon either.
Our first
appointment was with Dee, my social worker. We explained to her that we were
ready to start a family, and she questioned us, and explained that Bipolar
Disorder is genetic, and could possibly be passed down to our child. We know
this, and understand the possibilities, and would adopt, if able…..but no one
is going to let someone with bipolar disorder adopt a child, period. So, we are willing to take the risks. We
explained to Dee, as our child grows up, we will watch, though not too closely,
and look for signs and symptoms, and if indeed it has been passed down, we will
get our child the help it needs EARLY, so that he/she won’t have to go through
what I did, in young adulthood.
Dee was
very understanding, and called Dr. Carter, to find out what I could and couldn’t
take, and he said definitely not the lithium, and not the Geodon either, which
are the only things I am taking. I begged for there to be another drug, but he
said there weren’t any, and we made an appointment to see Dr. Carter on
December 11th, and discuss everything more in detail.
In the meantime,
I made an appointment at The Woman’s Clinic, because they have a high-risk
program there, and I will be able to have our child at Glenwood, a good
hospital that I totally trust. They set me up with Dr. Klug, who I saw today,
and absolutely LOVE. She is full of spunk and personality, and though she did
an exam on me, we talked the whole way through it, and it was like it never
even happened. I had prepared a list of vitamins and supplements to ask about, to
help with the instability of no medication at all. Brian came in, Dr. Klug looked it over, said it wouldn’t
hurt, but said there were medications in Class C Pregnancy that I could take, and
suggested Lamactil and Topamax as an alternative. Hope sprang, that there are
drugs that I can take during pregnancy, and we discussed that she has had
patients that have taken these drugs during pregnancy, and have had healthy and
happy babies!
We agreed
to meet again after I see Dr. Carter, and I set up another appointment for
December 17th. Dr. Klug and
all the rest of us agree, that… me….being completely off my rocker and crazy
during pregnancy, would be much, much worse for the baby, than taking a Class C
drug, that has not been proven to cause birth defects. And…..first thing….we
have the Lord on our side, and I trust Him through this whole process, and know
we will have a happy and healthy baby. When? I don’t know. My birth control
runs out December 15th, and I’m not going to continue it after that
date. So?..... prayers for us please!
After we
left Dr. Klug’s office, we ran by the Sonic for a coke, and Brian ended up
ordering lunch, and that Strawberry M&M blast looked delicious, so I had a
medium, and I’m not sure of the calories. I also had a coke, (340). We left there and ran by Mom’s bank and our
bank, and headed to Walmart, to pick up a pie and some coffee for my sewing
club tomorrow, and a few more things…
We stopped
back by Mama & Daddy’s, and relayed what Dr. Klug had said, and we are all
encouraged by this news, that there are medications I can take. Mama’s planning
on going to buy Granny a car tomorrow, so we looked at cars for a little while,
and she found this awesome 2011 Camry, for a reasonable price, and I’m so
excited for Granny, she’ll be able to GO!
Mama and I
searched online for jackets for Christmas, and I found one for Granny I
absolutely love, but I was very irritable today, because I didn’t take my
lithium this morning, and we couldn’t agree, so we just agreed to continue that
tomorrow, and Brian and I packed up our laptops, and headed home.
Sambo
greeted us as usual, and all the kitties were waiting while we brought in the
groceries. We sat around for maybe 10
minutes, and we knew it was time to get on the treadmill, so Brian got
up and got after it, and walked 25 minutes. In the middle of it, Brian
announced we should have drank coffee first, so I made a pot, and am yet to get
on the treadmill.
I read an
article that says, that drinking coffee before a workout, actually causes the
body to attack the fat cells, instead of the carbohydrates. This in mind, I’ve had 2 cups so far, and am
going to have 1 more, and am then going to hit the treadmill tonight, take a
shower, and then maybe sew a little. I
took my lithium as soon as I got home, so I do feel a lot more like myself now,
and know there is no way I can go without any medicine….it’s just not….smart,
rational, reasonable, or wise.
8:19pm
I just got
off the treadmill, for 15 minutes! It’s not my usual 30, but I didn’t do my
usual things on the treadmill today. Instead of just climbing that incline, I
did lunges as I climbed, and seriously swayed those hips back and forth, and by
the end of it, I felt like my legs were going to give out on me, so I finished
the 15 minutes, did a 2 minute cool down, and I am pleased with tonight’s
workout, for sure! They say 15 minutes of rigorous interval training is the
same as 30 minutes of moderate intensity training, so I figure I got my 30
minutes, because I was sweating at 5 minutes today!
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