July 28^th, 2012- morning
    Had a good night's sleep. Slept actually until 7 am, which is good, cause I usually wake up at around 4am. Brian got up at 6:30, and didn't even make coffee. When I got up, I had to bully him into making it. It's only fair, he was up first, he should've made it.
    We're now watching Espn 1^st Take, that aired last night at 8pm, as a special. And of course, it's on Tim Tebow, thumbs down. Although I must say that I find both Skip and Stephen A. endearing, and their little Takes 2 thing that aired before the show was really cute.
    Today I am going to try to get some things accomplished. Clean the kitchen, go to Walmart, wash some clothes. Do the floors again. I need to get my blood work done, but I have to find the sheet, and I honestly have no idea where it is.
    Espn 1^st Take is pissing me off talking so much about Tim Tebow, drop it already!
    Mama and Daddy are at Lake Darbonne this morning in Farmerville, fishing. They wouldn't answer their phones if they had them. I hope it doesn't get too hot today so they can get some fishing done.
    They have been planning this trip with Kathy and Jimmy for a week or so now, and then yesterday, Kathy called Mama at 3pm yesterday while she was getting ready to leave, and said 2 other people were coming as well.
    I'm scared to get on the scale on Wednesday, cause I'm scared I won't have lost any weight. After all, I ate dang rotel last night, and chips. I ain't going to lose any weight that way, for sure.
    Just saw an interview with Drew Brees of the SAINTS! He is so determined! If it's up to him and the offense, we will win a Super Bowl this year, no doubt. Last time we faced adversity, we won, and it ain't nothing different this year. I would love for us to really stick it to the NFL the way they stuck it to us this year. They hit us, we hit em back. I hate to call anyone a Savior besides Jesus, but Drew Brees has really saved the Saints football team. As Brian said, when Drew Brees gets that look in his eye and that determined, it ain't good for his Cowboys, or any other team. SO EXCITED FOR FOOTBALL!!!
    LSU is going to be really good this year too. I'm looking forward to a National Championship this year. I know we've got the talent, but it's Les Miles that I have lost a lot of faith in. I'm still sore from last years defeat against Alabama. The whole thing was nonsense. Jordan Jefferson stood with the ball looking like a deer in the headlights, and Les Miles, and his Michigan self, had the defiance to keep him in, when we could've put Jarrett Lee in, who by the way, won the first of the season for us. I'm still convinced that Jordan Jefferson must have had something on Les Miles, and although I have no evidence, there was no call to take Jarrett Lee out. Makes me fighting mad still to this day. I mean we LOST a national championship. We don't do that here in Louisiana. We just don't. If Les Miles doesn't straighten his ass up, and for some reason we lose another national championship, we're going to send his ass packing back up to Michigan. I'm going to call for a release! As is everyone here in Louisiana is screaming. We don't play those games here, Mr. Les Miles. We WIN! I don't care if he did get the name the Mad Hatter here in Louisiana, we don't care what he's called, itt don't endear him to us when he loses National Championships. Take it and run away, cause we better see improvement this year, for sure. I am SO AMPED FOR LSU FOOTBALL!!!
    As for the rest of the day, I'm going to try to eat very little , and try to lose some weight today. I might need to keep up with my activities as well, and count my calories deficit, but that is so much dang trouble! It may be well worth it however.
    I've got to walk today, and am undecided whether I should walk this morning or this afternoon. Thank GOD we get to stay home today, I love staying home with Brian.
    Mr. Sully followed me around as soon as I got up this morning. Him is such as sweet big ole kitty.
    I'm quitting the Xenadrine, and I know, and I realize that it will most likely boost my weight loss, but it's not good with my other meds, and I was having some really crazy thoughts last night. I had a vision of a pill, and I tried to absorb it, but it broke open into a bunch of other littler pills, like a puzzle. Not doing that shit.
    I do wish there was something I could take to boost my metabolism. With these medicines I'm on, there probably isn't. I'm going to have to lose it the old fashioned way.
    And NO I AM NOT HAVING SURGERY! I absolutely refuse. I realize that some people may have success with it, but I know a lady who had it and died. She DIED. Not worth the risk, to me. NOT DOING IT! EVER!
     I'm getting really sick of smoking. Really really tired of that cigarette taste in my mouth. It won't go away, cause I always light up another one. It dries my mouth out. I'm constantly drinking something. Just as soon as I get this weight off, that's my next project. 
    Miss Maelee still won't play with Mr. Sully. Since I threw Peaches out for good, he's had no one to play with but me. I've been trying to cheer his little kitty self up, making him dance and hugging the kitty, and he does cheer up. I just wish he had someone to play with, but I'm not getting another cat. Two is enough.
    We read something about this woman having 25 cats, and I thought to myself, how does this woman even have time to love all of them? She doesn't. Mr. Sully is enough all on his own, much less 24 more just like him. She must collect them or something. Kitties are meant to be loved, not collected.
    We're watching some kind of messed up show right now about his woman thinking she's 17 when she's at least 45. It's called Perception. I don't know, someone's psychotic and someone else is hallucinating. And they all got that crazy look in their eyes. I'm not watching it, Brian is. He likes it a little bit, but I don't know that he will continue watching it.
    Brian is a Falling Skies man. I like it too, and lookee here, we gotta wait 2 weeks to see the new show. I figure it's to let everyone else catch up on the episodes, but man, they are keeping us loyal fans waiting.
    Dad, (Brian's dad), is also a Falling Skies fan. Since Brian and Dad are separated by distance, they get an hour segment watching TV together on Sunday nights, one here, and one in Mississippi. He thinks about his Dad watching it with him.
    I really want one of those Neat Desks. Only they're freaking $400 dollars!!! Outrageous! That's as much as a computer, although it's kinda like a computer itself. Still, we don't have that kinda money, or maybe I can save for one soon. I have so much dang paper, but I kinda like paper, although it would be nice to type in a key word and be able to pull it up, although, if I needed it for something, I'd still have to print it out to use it. Which would make more paper. I have a tablet that's really good for looking up recipes and just setting it on the counter while I'm cooking, if I need a recipe for something. The only problem with tablets is the memory, so I've got to buy an SD card, which are at a reasonable price right now, I just keep forgetting.
    No but tablets are great for games, and stuff like that, but give me my laptop if I'm going to get on Facebook, which is very often, cause sometimes it don't actually click on what I press, for some reason, I'm really wondering if it's the memory.
    I just drank a protein shake for breakfast, well half of one, cause we didn't have much powder. We drank it with milk, and milk is a filler, although I don' t feel very filled. I should've made eggs. Tomorrow, tomorrow I will make eggs. I'm going to have to think of something good to eat for lunch. I've got tons of hamburger meat, maybe hamburger with no bun, and some vegetables. That's what I'll do.
    I get scared I'm never going to eat again. Lord knows, I love to eat. But I'm working on that. I will eat again, I tell myself, I will. I will eat anything I want. And actually, a protein shake is so easy for breakfast, and my kitchen is such a disaster area that I really didn't feel like cooking this morning anyway, but some cereal would have been nice.
    Which brings me to, I don't know about this damn no carb or white diet. It kinda pisses me off. I'm not into fad diets, everyone says cut the carbs, which I am doing now. Doesn't your brain have to have carbs to function? Yes? So we will all be running around here mindless with our no carb eating selves. I'm going to try it, but if I get to feeling any crazier than I already do, I'm going to eat carbs. Period. Just not as many.
    I will say though, I know whole wheat bread is better for you, but I have a damn hard time losing weight when I'm eating whole grained bread. Even that Ideal Protein Diet said that whole wheat bread can keep you from losing weight. Some of all this health conscious stuff seems like a load of shit to me.
    So many studies, everyone's doing a damn study suggesting this or that, and yet everyone in America is gaining weight. Maybe they don't know what in the hell they are talking about anyway. Science can be such a load of shit.
    Like doctors, they think they know anything. But they have to experiment on you before they can even diagnose, and then they give you a pill that may or may not work! It's not an exact science. No it's not, and you're not God.