Sunday, September 9th, 2012

Sunday, September 09, 2012

       I don’t feel like much of a success. I’m supposed to weigh tomorrow, and I am almost positive that I haven’t lost any weight this week.

       I’m in between screaming and pushing, trying to keep on track.

       My hope hasn’t left me, but I think I’m just going to have to give it up to the Good Lord, and start again. I don’t think I’m going to be able to continue my efforts, seeing all that has happened. I’m just going to have to quit, and start again a second later.

       I will pray when I get home this afternoon.

       I’m sitting at Daddy’s deer camp with Brian, Mama & Daddy, and we just got finished watching the Saints game.

4:24pm

       We just got back home. Brian asked what I was going to do when I got home, and I had plans to go in the bedroom and pray about quitting and starting again, when I decided to go ahead and pray about it while I was in the car, while I was thinking about it, I mean, WHY WAIT?

       I asked God to please help me quit and start again, and I thought I was going to have to pray some more when I got home to finish, but then I felt a small ache in my back, and then  a JOLT, I mean a real jolt, and I knew God had answered my prayers. Thank you Jesus!

       I resolved to go home and walk this afternoon, after coffee, of course.

       We’ve made it home, and I ate some Cherry Pistachio Crisp (260 calories/serving), which really isn’t bad for a dessert, although I would much rather have a Skinny Cow Ice Cream Sandwich for 150 calories right about now.

       I know we said we were boycotting Walmart, and I would love to, but I can’t find anywhere else that sales the Skinny Cow. I also need some light bulbs for my chandelier in the dining room, some pita bread, and some jug water to make coffee with, and some TIDE, since I’ve almost used it all this weekend washing clothes…..so it looks like I’m going to Walmart tomorrow.

       Last night I got on Target.com, and they are having an AMAZING CLEARANCE, and I put about 40 items in my cart, having to use 2 browsers, cause they only allow 23 at a time of the line items. My total came out to about $200 dollars, and I was going to buy them, and then didn’t. It was all lingerie and underwear and shoes. Why I didn’t buy when I had the chance I don’t know. I just don’t want to spend any money on anything but real fall clothes.

       It seems that most people aren’t really putting out fall clothes. I see all these bright blues, although I have seen a yellow mustard color that I’m liking for fall. I’m looking for sweaters and boots, scarves and gloves, blue jeans. I haven’t seen much of that lately. I figure it will all be out in a couple of weeks. I’ll be looking for the sales, if they have any.

       Kohl’s is having a wonderful fine jewelry sale right now, and I’m about to order myself some ¼ ct. diamond earrings for 150.00, and a diamond bracelet for 70.00.

       I told Brian, look, you can pick me out something for 500 dollars, and I get one thing. But if you let ME pick it out, and buy it on sale, I get 5 things. I’d rather have 5 things. So we’re putting this stuff up for Christmas.

6:06pm

       Just got done walking for 22:22 on the treadmill, at 2.8mph, walked over a mile, I’m sweating, and I feel good about it.

       This may sound crazy, but I noticed when I was walking, that I walk out of balance. I got one of my 2lb weights, and held it in my left hand only, and walked like that for a while, and I was more in balance.

       Bear with me, cause this is crazy too. I am receiving grace. It started with the weights, and then I started paying attention to my knees, trying to strengthen them, and then it just…. Happened.

       Now I’m not saying I’m as graceful as a ballerina or that I will ever be, but I’m becoming a lot more graceful than I was. I’m not saying it’s going to be noticeable overnight, or anything like that, but I’m aware of it, and I started on that path with the Lord. It’s not like I went I looking for it either, it just showed up, and I am blessed.

       I ordered 3 pairs of diamond earrings, 1 gold, 1 silver, and 1 diamond and amethyst, which I plan to wear with my black velvet strapless dress, when we go on vacation in November.

       I also ordered a diamond heart link bracelet, and a diamond cross necklace. 5 things, and I spent less than 500 dollars.

       Brian said I could go ahead and have them when they come in, that it’s just a present for me, for just being me.

       HE IS SO GOOD TO ME! I’m going to have to load him up this Christmas with all kinds of things. I need to buy him something now, just because.

       Brian’s not doing too good in his Fantasy League this week. One of his starters didn’t even get to play, and Uncle Joe is smoking everyone, as he did last year too, from what I’ve heard.

       The Saints. I’m not rooting for them until Drew Brees or some of the other team members realize they don’t only represent New Orleans, they represent the whole of Louisiana.  I feel that although New Orleans is the biggest city in Louisiana, I feel that it does not represent Louisiana as a whole, nor do I want it to.

       Northern Louisiana and Southern Louisiana are like two different states. We have different cultures, conflicting with one another. The Saints should embrace both cultures, as the whole state gets behind them.

       I’m not against New Orleans by any means, but I do not feel that they represent us here in Northeast Louisiana, or in the Northern part of the state of Louisiana.

       When some of the members of the team say, we represent the state of Louisiana as a whole community, I will get behind them again. Until that time, I will root for the opposing team, unless it’s the Steelers, because I will never get behind Rothesburger, or however you spell it, like I care.

       Until that time, I will be rooting for the Dallas Cowboys to win the Superbowl. Every time they play, I will be behind them 100%, as I feel that they deserve to win another Superbowl, that they are due….and because the man in my life is their biggest supporter, and will defend and love them, no matter who disagrees with him.

       I’m not even hungry, but I feel I should eat something, because I am feeling a little weak. Maybe it’s grace…. Shucking off the hard defenses, and gathering the more feminine demeanor. This is going to be a long process, cause I’m about as much as a tomboy as a person can be. Maybe a lettuce leaf? j/k

       But seriously, I can’t think of anything to eat, but am just feeling like drinking a lot of water. I’m even sitting back on my couch now, instead of hunching, which is definitely something new. I noticed when I got up to let Sambo out, that I was walking differently, could be the knees.

       Now I’m breathing differently…..this is not in my head!

       The Lord is faithful to see me through to the end of it, I know that much!

       I’m rooting for the 49er’s to win the game, but Green Bay is giving them a lot of trouble right now. We shall see.

       I’ve had cherry-pistachio crisp (260) before church. We went to Daddy’s camp, and I had a salad (200), a ¼ inch of boudin (100), and a sausage hotdog (sausage (300) hotdog bun (100)). I also had 2 real cokes (140x2). I came home and had some more cherry crisp (260). =1500 for the day.

       Nope I don’t need to eat anything else. I burned 130 calories on the treadmill = 1370 for the day.

10:19pm

       It’s late, but I’m not ready for bed, although I am tired. Brian is watching the Denver/Pittsburg game tonight, and I believe Denver is going to win it, cause there’s 4 minutes left in the game, Denver has the ball, and is also ahead.

       I ate about 5 pistachios and 4 or 5 almonds….so I guess that’s 100 calories there. Total for the day is 1470.

       Brian made Rotel dip, and I wanted some but didn’t eat it. I even have jalepenos, and didn’t eat it. I’m going to plan to eat the leftovers tomorrow, so that’s around 600 calories I’ve got to count for tomorrow.

       I picked up my Acer Tablet for the first time in months. I’m going to skip out on paper from now on, and go digital. I think. Cause I do like writing. There’s this new Galaxy Tablet that has a stylus with it, so that would be cool to have, to write with, but it looks like I’ve already got a tablet, so I don’t need another one.

       I’ve got this 2DO app on my tablet, and I made a semi-complete checklist of everything I have to do tomorrow, and I’m exhausted just thinking about it.

       I also made a to do for my kitchen….rearranging cabinets, and organizing my pantry and medicine cabinets…under the sink, top of the fridge.

       I want to get everything seriously organized in our home, cause everything is just shoved somewhere it seems, and I like for everything to have it’s own little place, although I seriously doubt everything will have it’s own exact place, just in the area. I’m not that OCD.

       I washed some dishes tonight, but I’ve still got a sink full I am going to do tomorrow sometime. I also got most of the clothes washed this weekend, with just a few loads left in our bedroom.  The laundry room did get cleaned though, which is a huge accomplishment, and my floors up front got done.

       I’ve been looking at my living room, and I am thinking that a 5x8 rug would fit nicely in here, instead of an 8x10. That’s good, because I can find those anywhere, and usually just stick it in my buggy, for not very much, which is good, cause my cats may tear the dang thing up anyway.

       I gave Mr. Sully a little kitty treat tonight, and he didn’t like them, but he had more, so I fed him the one that’s good for his teeth, and he ate them right up. He’s got 3 beds now, which Brian says is unfair because Brian only has 1. I have 3 cats, and I was expecting Maelee and Peaches to claim the other 2, but we ended up throwing Peaches back outside, and Maelee has snubbed the other 2 beds.

       I just want to thank Whitney Valentine….for noticing my mood, and getting me to notice it, and take warning, and figure out what I needed to do to get back on track. THANK YOU WHITNEY!!!! I just pray that the Lord bless her in every way imaginable, and her family too.