Tuesday, November 13, 2012

November 13, 2012

Tuesday

6:58pm

            Brian and I are both sitting in our chairs in the living room this evening. Sambo is fighting for the ottoman, but Brian has finally overpowered him, after much resistance.

            I got up at 6am, though we had planned to wake at 5am, so that we could both walk our 30 minutes. Brian got up at 5 though, and made coffee, but he didn’t attempt to continue to wake me up. I didn’t fall asleep til late last night, he didn’t know that, but I’m glad he didn’t try to wake me.

            I had my coffee, and at about 6:15, we agreed that Brian should get on the treadmill first, and we would walk at least 10 minutes. After our walks, we still had time to get in the shower, and though I fought it, I went first.

            We made it to work at 8am. Well, I say work, but really, Brian made it to work, and I just showed up to sew. 

 

Granny called, said Mrs. Pat would be starting on my quilts, but that she was going to use white thread instead of the thread I bought, because she has to use a certain kind. In response, I suggested that I could buy the thread she needs in my colors, and order it online today, if Mrs. Pat would just wait, it would be here in a week. Granny said she’d tell Mrs. Pat, so I got to thinking that I would find some thread and order it. When I got to looking, there are all kinds of different grades, so I called Mrs. Pat to ask which one? Mrs. Pat said she liked to do it in white, cause it looks good, and I didn’t want it in white, and she said she didn’t fool with different grades, so I just said I’d just quilt it myself, to send them back with Granny today. What can I say? Mrs. Pat likes things the way she likes em….and so do I.

I sewed all morning, and found that I was lonely back in that room by myself, so I decided it was time to go to the bank, and stop back by and see Jennifer Branch and Claire, and bring them the gifts we got them from Ft. Walton.

            I near about fell asleep on the drive over, but I made it to the bank, and stopped back in Chevron, where I found sausage and egg biscuits for half off, so I bought 3, one each for me, Brian, and Mama.

            Jennifer was doing good, and we talked about how Lenai is growing up, Claire is walking, and me just trying to figure things out.  There was a point there she reminded me so much of Twig, and we laughed, because as she said, married couples grow into each other.

            I was hoping I’d be back before Granny came over, so I hurried home, but she had already been and left, leaving my quilts and batting on the kitchen table. I was sorry I missed her, but picked up the baby blanket and backing, and started quilting on it.

            Brian and I ate our biscuits, and then Mama came back in and ate hers. The phones were ringing off the hook, and everyone was talking to somebody, but me, and it was terribly lonely. I decided I would take a  nap, and slept til about 3pm.

            I sewed a little more, finished the top row, and got started on the second. Baby Cole will be born November 30^th, and we want to get this quilt finished as soon as possible, so we can get it to Todd and Tammy Sullivan, his parents.  I figure I have 5 rows to quilt, 1 done….if I do 2 rows a day, I’ll be done quilting on Thursday, and can do the binding on Friday. We can deliver the blanket to them Thanksgiving week, when we visit the Sullivan’s in Mississippi.

            I got lonely again. Mama was talking up a storm happily to someone on the phone, and Brian was helping someone, and I just felt I wanted to help someone too. I talked to Mama yesterday about being a receptionist type person at Maximum Access. I would screen the calls and take the complaints, be the first person the customers talk to, just to relieve some of the stress off Brian and Mama. Mama said she didn’t need anyone right now, no thanks. It was very disappointing, as that is my Mother, and I don’t understand at all. It is what it is, I just wanted to help, and work.

            I asked Brian to come talk to me, and I’ve been thinking all day about what I want to do, where I want to work, who I want to help. My decision today, is to help myself. I don’t know how I’ll feel quilting tomorrow, but I trust the Lord above, that I will feel differently about a lot of things that I do for myself, as I took this step with Him, and trust Him to change my feelings in these areas. It may be a slow process, but it is a process, and I just got roll through the motions of it all, until I get it down pat.

            I had a fruit and nut bar and a glass of milk for breakfast this morning, a biscuit for lunch, and then tonight we had tacos again. On the way home, we stopped at Cannon’s and I bought cigarettes, and grabbed some pork rinds and a real coke. Add that to the calorie count. I’d say I had 1200 today, and that’s stretching it, cause I didn’t eat much at all.

            Let’s see: fruit and nut bar (180) milk (300) biscuit (200) tacos (400) pork rinds (100) coke (300)=1480. Ok, so I guess it wasn’t stretching it. Minus 70 calories for 10 minute walk =1410.