August 10th, 2012

August 10th, 2012

5am

Day 396, Week 57, Day 4 of the week, 4 days to go this week, before we weigh Tuesday morning.

We didn’t want to take that walk last night, not at all, but we made a vow to do it everyday, without fail, and we decided we could do it for at least 5 minutes, and so we walked for 5 minutes, burning 30 calories, and stuck with our vow.

Today is Friday, and it’s payday, or bill day, as we call it both in our home. If we are lucky, we might have some left over for the week. Don’t know yet, still have to pay bills today.

I’ve had 2 or 3 cups of coffee, and I’m about coffee logged. I might have just one more, just because it’s morning, and I hope I don’t get on edge from all this caffeine, but I feel myself getting there already.

I woke Brian up just a few minutes ago, and he is in such a good mood this morning! He’s already laughing, and picking on Mr. Sully!

Got so much to do this weekend! Gotta walk in about 20 minutes, take a shower, get dressed. And I’ve still got to find something to wear! Maybe a dress today, that’s easy. But which one!

Granny and Mrs. Iris are stopping by Mama’s at around 9:30 or 10, and then at around 10:45, I need to leave to go by Taylor’s Naturopathic Medicine clinic, and meet him at 11:30. When I leave there, I’ve got to go by the bank. And I think I’m going to have to go by the grocery store today too, because I’m not going to have time to do it on Saturday, since we are going to Mississippi. I have a feeling this weekend is going to fly by. Thank God He is in control of time, and doesn’t let it spin out of control.

I need to make a list, so I don’t forget anything. And Oh Heavens! It is a busy day.

This is EXACTLY what I feared. Being busy. Not having time for myself, to think about things. So much going on, Lord Have Mercy! Time just can’t fly by, it just can’t!

I’m really really scared of being so busy! I know most people are busy, very busy, but I’m scared to be. I don’t think I will like it, at all.

I fear busyness, because I fear becoming careless in my actions, and words, and things that I do with other people. I’ve got to maintain some sense of time, and hold what’s important to me, close to my heart.

I realize that I AM happy, but I don’t want to get out of control, as I have a tendency to do, when I’m really happy and really busy. I am praying now that the Lord not let me get carried away with life, and stay who I am today. Please pray for me, that I stay down to earth.

The Lord is not this earth, but He is the  earth that I lean upon. I’ve never been down to earth, but with His help just now, I have started down that road. Everything is a process, and I can’t wait to see the changes in my life, and in my heart, and in my mind, and in my spirit as I go along. God is so good! And Full of good things!

Gotta go get on that treadmill!

August 10, 2012

9:20am

After our walk of 15 minutes this morning, burning 90 calories a piece, we got dressed, and out the door by 7:40.

We made it Mom and Dad’s, coffee was brewing, and it was quiet. It didn’t take but about 2 minutes, and the phone rang, which didn’t surprise either of us, because Mom said the whole South network was down.

I answered a few calls, from some really nice people, and explained about the storm last night, and how we were all working really hard to get it all back up and running quickly.

Mom headed out the door, and went to a tower, and got two or three places fixed, by the time she returned. Uncle Jay went straight to another tower this morning, and is working on it now, and then is headed to another one. Dad just left, and he’s headed to Start, to work on that tower, too.

Brian has been answering phone calls, one after another, all morning. There’s only 2 phones, and Dad needed the other one to get in touch with Mom and Uncle Jay, so I wasn’t able to answer any additional calls.

I felt/feel totally useless. I’ve been sitting here minding my own business, paying bills, and I feel like there’s something I could be doing, but what?

Thankfully, so far, none of the gear is fried, so we won’t have to get a tower climber, and hopefully it will all be a quick fix at Miller and Tindal towers as well.

Granny and Mrs. Iris just came by for a quick visit, and I gave Granny some of my soup from last night. They were doing good, and picked up some peaches and tomatoes from Mom and Dad’s stash.

It’s about time for my protein shake, I’ve been drinking coffee all morning, and a bottle of water early this morning, before my walk. I feel like having something good, and automatically I thought food, but I quickly realized good can be anything good.

So today, when I go to Monroe in about an hour,  after I leave from Taylor’s Acupuncture Clinic, I’m going to go by Kohl’s and get me a long gold necklace, that’s something good.

Brian wants something good too, so he’s going to order a Dallas Cowboys cap.

I really think we deserve it, it’s been almost 3 weeks of eating healthy, and watching our calories, and walking. We deserve something good. Or some things, depends on how many necklaces I find there! A reward, so to speak.

We have decided to weigh on Monday morning, instead of Tuesday. Monday night is Dallas’ first preseason game, and Brian wants to have Rotel and tater chips with his game. I didn’t think that would be a good idea to eat the night before we weigh, so we are just going to weigh a day early. That’s fair, I mean, we are actually cutting off a day, so we haven’t had as much time as last week. Like Brian said, there’s no such rule on what day we weigh, we make our own.

We will weigh on Monday morning, have Rotel on Monday night, and then wait a week to weigh, on either Monday of next week, or Tuesday, or even Sunday. We will see. That way we will have enough time to burn off our calories, and lose some weight, and keep everything on track, until the next week comes. We weighed a day early last week too, on Tuesday morning, instead of Wednesday, so it’s really no big deal.

The important thing is that the scale goes down every time we weigh each week. And we don’t want to deprive ourselves, or jeopardize our progress on the scale, with one meal, at any point. It would discourage us, and that’s not fair at all.

So we have Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, and then we weigh. 3 days. I can do 3 days.

Which gets me to thinking, maybe we SHOULD do each week in increments of 3/6. Go half a week with 3, then the other half with 3, and weigh on the 6th day. I mean, God created the earth in 6 days, and on the 7th, he rested. And we can monitor our progress on the 6th day as well! Hmm… I don’t know, it’s a reach in thinking like this, but it might be something to it, and we might try it. I mean, it’s got to be something to it, because this is the 2nd week in a row it’s worked out this way, or is it the 3rd? It may be the 3rd?

August 10th, 2012

1:05 pm

I just got back from Monroe. I didn’t get to see Taylor today, though I did go by his office. I left here at 10:30, and stopped by Cannon’s, to get some cigarettes and a Diet Coke for the ride over. By the time I got to Arbour Acupuncture Clinic, it was 11:15, and I had to pee! I pulled up, and walked to the door, and it was locked. I stood there for a minute, staring inside at Taylor’s professional set up. I knew Taylor had told me he had a client at 10:30, so when I found his door locked, I figured he must have got done early for the day and went home. On the shot of a prayer, I thought about waiting, but as it would be, I had to pee, and had to find the nearest bathroom, which was the Kangaroo on North 18th.

When I left there, I went by Kohl’s, for my good things. When I walked in the door, this woman was done checking out, and then she saw me, and followed me all the way to the jewelry department. I found that odd, when she was already done shopping. It really got on my dang nerves, to be honest.

I found 5 gold necklaces. 2 long, and 3 short, and a pair of dangly heart earrings, and they were all on sale. I got the short necklaces, 2 of them hearts, for 6.99 each, and the other was a butterfly, also 6.99, and they are all gold, and so are my earrings. The long necklaces I got, are layered, one has a turtle pendant, and the other has a three different pendants, one with a strawberry, an apple, and a crystal. I even got an extra 15% off, just for having a Kohl’s charge.

I checked out, and then went to the bank, and deposited Brian’s check.

When I got back to Mom & Dad’s, the power was out, and still is. Brian asked if I got Taylor’s call. Well, someone called me, but I didn’t answer, because I never know who it is, and if I don’t know your number, I don’t answer. He said Uncle Larry had called for my number, for Taylor. I must not know Taylor very well. I guess he would never set a date and then not show, and I am glad to know that he’s a good guy, even to his poor old cousin, Erin.  I hope next time we can meet, and show up at the same time.

Brian and I ate lunch, the soup we had last night (349 calories), and no crackers for me. I had to eat it cold, because the power is out, but it was still pretty good.

So today I’ve had protein shake (340) coffee (200) soup (349)=(900)

Mom asked me to text Twig, and ask him if he was busy today, and if he could climb a tower for them. He said he was keeping the girls right now, but when Jenn got off work, he could. So Mom & Dad told him to call when Jenn gets home, and they will meet him in Start, because it’s the Start tower that’s down. How convenient, cause Twig lives in Start.

I feel like a bad person for missing Taylor. I hope it’s not my fault, just a timing thing like Brian said. I could’ve put in a little extra effort though, but I am hoping and praying to know that God has his own plan and time for things, and maybe I was at the right place somewhere else, and so was Taylor, as we are now. I trust that God’s perfect will always be done, and that He is in total control, of all our lives.

4:06pm

1 Hour left, and it’s FRIDAY! That means both me and Brian get to sleep late tomorrow, and I don’t know if I’m going to write for public viewing tomorrow or not; just depends on how I feel.

Mama met Twig and I think Gary Tyree in Start, sometime while I was napping, between 1-3:30. She’s still gone, so unless they get done quick, I won’t get to see her before we leave.

Daddy is in his office, working on someone diligently. He has been there since before I got up, and has been working hard all day.

I had about 5-10 potato chips, the new Ultimate Ruffles BBQ kind, so that’s about (100) calories, and I’m having another cup of coffee (50). So that puts me at (1050) for the day –minus my walk (90) = (940).

I don’t know what I’m going to eat tonight, if anything. Maybe another protein shake, so we don’t mess up any more dishes. I feel like something light and easy, so that should do the trick, plus it tastes good, like an icecream shake.

Today is Day 396, and I can barely believe it. It was just day 399 two days ago it seems like. The countdown is going by so fast! It’ll be here before I know it! Every day, an inch closer.

I did pray about continuing to blog, and post on facebook, and I feel that it’s okay, and the Lord is encouraging me, so I will continue to do just that.