August 11, 2012

August 11, 2012 – Saturday
5am
It’s Saturday! Day 395!!!! 395!!!! Week 57, Day 5, 2 left to go (Saturday and Sunday). 


I am so tempted to go get on the scale today, right now. I just know I’ve lost some pounds, and I know I’ve lost some inches as well. I haven’t taken my measurements in 2 weeks, so on Monday morning, when I weigh, I will do that as well, and report my progress. 

I mean I know it’s only been 4 days, so I need to give myself those 2 more days, but still!! I can FEEL myself getting smaller! I’m even tempted to tell ya’ll how much I weigh, if you haven’t figured it out already. Cause I said I wanted to lose 114.5 more pounds, and that I want to weigh 120. Do the math, I weigh 232.5 pounds, last time I weighed. So in 114.5 pounds, I’ll actually weigh 118. Which is good, cause I’d like to be under 120, if all my muscle mass will allow.

I am building some serious muscle! Carrying around all this weight, I can’t help but build muscle. Like I said before, I’m going to be as strong as an ox when all this gets done with. Walking on that treadmill with all this weight is really building muscle!

Sambo is asleep in the chair beside me. Now, I know that people just LOVE dogs, but to be honest, I can’t stand a damn dog. I’ve never liked them. And although I know they are little puppies with little hearts, and I feel bad about it, and try to like them all I can, I just can’t seem to grow attached to them. I don’t like their behaviors. 

Cats, now, me and cats get along just fine. I love all my little kitties, for sure. Brian doesn’t really like cats, so he’s got his dogs, and I’ve got my cats. I guess we’ll have to have babies one day, perk of that is that we both like em.

We are going to Mississippi today, and I’ve got to wake Brian up in about 3 hours. I’m thinking about starting some clothes, and finishing the dishes this morning. I’ve been up since about 3 am, just writing in my diary, and now on here. 

I mean I really, really, really, want to go weigh. I mean, I’ve just got to wait til Monday. Today is Saturday, so I just have today and tomorrow, and then I can weigh. I can wait that long, I guess. 

I’m planning today, to have a protein shake for breakfast. Since we are going to MS, and won’t be at home for lunch, I am planning on us stopping at either the Sonic or Bumpers, and having a grilled chicken sandwich, no fries, for lunch. Depending on what time we leave tonight, probably around 4pm, we’ll get back at 6pm, and we can drink another protein shake, or I can make a tuna salad for dinner. I would like a tuna salad. 

I’ve decided to make the soup tomorrow morning in 2 parts. Part One will be making the broth on the stove, and part two will be adding all the ingredients into the crockpot and letting it simmer on High for about 2 ½ hours while we are in church. That way, when we get out of church, everything will be done, so Twig and Jennifer don’t have to stay all day, waiting on lunch. 

We haven’t had them over before, but I hope they know we are not going to hold them hostage, and a short visit is just as good as a long visit. I’m not one of these where it’s not okay to eat and run. You can eat and run at our home. It’s just as well to me. I know we all have busy, busy lives, and there’s only so many hours in the day to get everything we need to get done accomplished. Whoever made the rule of not being able to eat and run, well, I just don’t agree. I mean, me and Brian have things to do tomorrow too.

I’m thinking about waking Brian up at 7am this morning. I kinda feel bad about it, since he never gets to sleep late, and has gotten up early every day this week, and worked hard all day. He really does need to get up though, because we are leaving here at 10am, and that will give him his usual 3 hours to drink coffee, walk, and get dressed. He did get to sleep 2 hours later than usual today, although I don’t know what time he ended up coming to bed, because I went to bed before he did. He stayed up playing on the Play Station, and drinking beer. 

I would say we could leave at 12 for Mississippi, and come back at 6, but that would put us getting home at 8pm, which I guess we could do. So I’ll get him up at 9am instead. 

I can’t find my measurement sheet anywhere, and I’m wondering if I left it over at Mom & Dad’s, or if Brian threw it away, accidentally. I did take my measurements this morning, but I can’t see my progress without that sheet! I don’t think I’ve lost any inches in my waist, it still measures 44”. I guess I’m going to have to do some crunches and waist exercises to get that off. I would call Mama and see if she’s got my sheet, but she’s probably still asleep this morning. She always sleeps late on the weekends. 

I wasn’t planning on cleaning, until tonight, but since Brian’s not getting up ‘til 9, and we won’t be back until 8pm tonight, I might as well throw a load of clothes in the wash, and do some dishes while I wait. I know my Mama always cleans the house first thing in the mornings, so I guess I’ll have to adjust today. It’ll go by quick, that’s only 2 hours. 

I’ve been taking my diabetes meds, and my other meds every day, and I haven’t had any problems since last Sunday with my blood sugar. I really need to check it with my tester, 3x daily, but I don’t, and haven’t checked it in a couple of days. That’s something that I am going to have to get on track with, I just hate sticking my damn finger.

August 11, 2012
8:51pm

We just got back from Mississsippi about an hour ago. I’ve been checking facebook, cause I hate doing it on my phone. I know it’s a large screen for a phone, but still, I don’t like a touch screen. They just don’t work for me.

We left here this morning at about 9:30. I had to beg Brian to get up this morning, and he didn’t want to go, but in the end, he decided to definitely go.

We stopped in Vicksburg at about 11, and ate lunch. I had a grilled chicken sandwich w/ honey mustard and pickles only, and Brian ate popcorn chicken. When I looked it up, it was 480 calories, and my fries were 300.

We got to Delta City at around 12. Auntie was in the kitchen about to fix some dinner, and Dad was out at the moment. We sat and talked, and then he came in, and we all congregated in the living room, and sat and talked all the rest of the day. 

Me and Auntie got to spend some good time together, sitting outside on the swing, talking about the Lord, and about her melons, and all of the kinds of things she’s been making here lately. She sews the cutest tops, and has really inspired me to do some of the same, when I finally get time.

Auntie keeps an immaculate house, and I really wish I could do the same. I’m going to try, really hard to do so. We’ll see how I do.

At about 3pm, we walked over to Kitty’s home, and visited with her and Corbin for about an hour. They were both doing really good. Kitty’s making all these cakes for people now, and they are all so very pretty. She’s really good at it, and next time I need a cake for something, I’m going to ask her to do it. 

At 4pm, we had to head on back. We said our goodbyes, and started home.

On the way back, I was feeling so hungry, like really hungry. I really felt like I really needed something, a lot of something fried to eat. Auntie had been making twice baked potatoes when we left, so I got in my head that I wanted tater skins, and I knew just where to get them: Garfield’s.

Brian wanted Mexican, but since we had that last time we came through, we agreed on Garfield’s, which is also, the spot of one of our first dates. When we walked in, the first thing they asked was smoking or not smoking. ….yes, please! Mississippi must not have that law, and I was pleasantly surprised when I sat down to find an ashtray. 

We were really, really needing some food. So I ordered 3 different appetizers, really 5, because one of the appetizers had 3 on it, and I ordered 2 others. I didn’t care how many calories it was, I was eating it, regardless, and I’d figure that out later. 

When our food came, it was good, and we ate our fill, and had some left over. Then our entrees came, and I had ordered the Pesto Pasta, and it turned out to not be good at all, so I didn’t eat hardly any of it, but maybe 4 or 5 forkfulls, and then went back to the tater skins, and then quit altogether. 

We put all our stuff in to go boxes, and the check came, and then I decided,  you know what? I want desert too. So we got desert. A nice big fudge brownie with ice cream on top and chocolate topped on top of that. It was so good. I ate over half, and Brian could tell I really liked it, so he offered to give me the whole thing, but I saved him the last bite. For all that food, our ticket was only about $60.00. I thought it was a good deal. We tipped the waitress good, and left.

Next stop was Brookshires in Delhi, where we had to pick up a few things for my soup makings, since I used some of the things on Thursday when I made it. We ran into Vicki Viola Denman, and she asked how the diet was going? Good, we just ate potato skins, and fried pickles! Gonna get back on it tomorrow though!

And we are. I don’t find anything wrong with indulging here and there. I’m not doing it daily, so what’s the big deal? I still believe I will have lost weight come Monday morning, but we will all see, including me, just how much. 

Even if it’s 2 pounds, that’s 2 pounds! 2 pounds at a time, is a good pace, I think. And if I don’t lose any this week, and Heaven help, gain weight this week, we’ll all know why. But seriously, last week I had over 2000 calories for 2 days, and still lost 2 pounds, and I didn’t even walk. This week, I’ve walked every day, and not had over 2000 calories any day, except today. So I seriously should be just fine. 

I’m still holding out hope that I don’t have to completely deprive myself, and make myself miserable, to lose weight. I’m listening to my body, and today my body said I needed to eat, so I ate. I tried and tried to hold out, and it wasn’t a craving of any kind, it was a down deep need to eat kind of thing. I even thought about skipping it, but no, I was going to be pissed if I didn’t have a tater skin tonight. Pissed isn’t good. If I’m pissed about it, something’s wrong. So I got that tater skin alright. No need getting in a bad mood about food. No need turning into a horrible person that no one can stand to be around. I’ll take that tater thank you very much!

We stopped by Mom & Dad’s on the way home, and I looked up the calories for Garfield’s. Ultimate Appetizer was 1200, and I had 1/3 so that comes to (450) thereabouts. Fried Pickles weren’t on there, so I’m guestimating (150). Neither were the Garlic Cheese Fries, but I didn’t have many of those (300). My pasta dish I hardly ate (300), and the Fudge Brownie with Icecream listed for 584 approximately, and I had over half (350). Today I also had a protein shake (340), grilled chicken sandwich from Sonic listed at (480), fries (300), coffee (400) Vanilla Diet Coke (100) – my walk (60) = about (3110).  And I don’t regret it one bit.

Going to start back tomorrow morning, with a protein shake and a low cal soup. Gonna be a good day tomorrow, starting with coffee, and a walk.