August 26th ,2012 = Sunday

August 26^th, 2012- Sunday

       It’s a beautiful Sunday morning again this Sunday. Been up since about 6:30am, and have been facebooking and drinking coffee ever since, and it’s 7:21am now.

       I’ve missed hearing about what’s been going on with everybody this past week, and am glad to be back online and posting and blogging now.

       I’m thinking about resetting my countdown to be to when I reach 170 instead of 120, but before I do, I’ve got to talk to Brian about it some more, just to make sure he’s completely on board with us having children. I think he will be, I’m almost positive about it, as long as we’ve got a lot of our debt paid off, which we should very soon, when we get our income check back, which they said it would be 30-60 days, in the next few months.

       I really want children, I love them so much, and kids love me too. The funny thing is that I can hold someone’s kid for a while, and then the mom always wants her back after I hold her/him for a little while. I’m not trying to steal their kid, although I would take him/her, and I always give them back when the mom wants them. I just think it’s funny, cause kids love me.

       I got to play with Myles and Maddie Grace, and Cody Wood’s little boy, C.J., and I had so much fun with them, nurturing their little talents and abilities. I think I rubbed off on all those kids, I just hope none of them ever smoke, and I always feel guilty for smoking in front of kids.

       Most kids listen to me, and I hope my kids will too. I just gotta keep a positive attitude, but my kids probably won’t listen to me, cause I think that’s how it goes with parents. Maybe I’ll be blessed, and they will.

       Brian’s still asleep, but I’ve got to get him up soon, so that he can have his coffee and his sports before church. Dallas won last night, so he got lucky, and I think the Saints did too. I got so mad at those refs last night, they were calling everything under the sun, and I began demanding an end to the ref strike.

       LSU plays Saturday, and I can’t wait for that game to begin. Hopefully we will have a good team this year. I’m kinda upset about the Honey Badger, but I hear he’s cleaning his life up, and this may be the turning point in this young man’s life.

       The Lord has a message for us this Sunday morning, for all of us that go to the Lord’s house and worship, and I don’t want to miss it, so we are going to church this morning.

       Brian is in there stirring around, so I figure he’s about to get up, and Mr. Sully just went to go check and see. He’s been following me around this morning, wanting some kitty love, so I’ve petted and held him and loved my little kitty.

       Sambo is sad cause Charlie never came back after Monday night Mama said. So he lost his brother this week too, and has no other dog to play with. I should’ve put Charlie on the chain, but I didn’t think it would be good to chain him up day and night all week long, so I told Brian he would be fine, and it turned out, he wasn’t. I’m so sorry about that, and next time we have a dog, we’ll make sure they can’t get away when we go away. Sambo is on an electric fence, and we had Charlie on it too, but Sambo chewed up Charlie’s collar and receiver about 5 times, and those things are 120 dollars every time, so we just started chaining him up instead. We should have chained him up, and it’s my fault we don’t still have him, cause puppies make stupid mistakes.

       I don’t think I’m up for Sunday School this morning, so I think we are just going to go to morning and evening church. We’ve got Lenai a present, so I hope Jennifer and Twig are there this morning too, which I hope they are there anyway, I love seeing them every week at church.

       I am going to wear my blue dress this morning, and I’ve got to take a shower, but I’ve got about an hour and a half, so I think I’m going to go ahead and sew some this morning, I’ve got an itch to do it.

       We didn’t get to mow our yard yesterday, we were just too lazy, and then it started to rain again. I don’t know that we will get it done today either, since we are going to church tonight, and I don’t want to take another shower after I mow before church this evening.

       Mama is cooking us chicken and rice today for lunch, so we’ll be going over there after church, and see how she’s doing today. I guess we will start getting dressed at around 9:30 this morning, so I’ve got an hour and 45 minutes. Going to go sew!

6:48pm

       We just got finished eating dinner. I made deer backstrap & gravy, buttered succotash, and mustard greens. I barely ate my backstrap, I’m used to cooking the tenderloin, and it just didn’t cook the same. It was still good, just not the same.

       I think I’m about to get me one of those skinny cow ice cream sandwiches. So today I’ve had protein shake (340) chicken (150) rice (300) gravy (100) peas (75) chips (150) coffee (200) deer steak (150) buttered succotash (100) greens (50) skinny cow (150 x 2) milk (150) = 2065 for the day.

       I can already see that eating a big lunch and a big supper just aren’t going to cut it. It’s going to have to be one or the other. Buy hey! It’s Sunday, cut me some slack now would ya?

       I’ve been sewing all day, since we got back from Mama’s after church. I’ve got all but about 5 of Brian’s patches done, and then 4 more that I’ve got to order Georgia Bulldogs fabric for, and I’ll work on the rest of Mama’s while I wait for that to come in.

       I’m kinda getting tired of just sewing squares. Granny said the Log Cabin was easy, so when I make Dad & Auntie’s quilts, I’m going to use the Log Cabin pattern & make them that way.

       As I was sewing today, I realized how repetitious life is, but I trust in the Lord, that though it may be repetitious, He is merciful in the repetition of all things. All we can do is fear Him, Love Him, and trust in His infinite Kindness and Mercy and Love.

       We talked to Lacy today, and she was doing okay, just taking it one day at a time. She said, It just sux, and I thought that was a good way to put it, It just sux.

       I didn’t take a nap today, which means I must be feeling better, cause I usually do.

9:56 pm

       Did take a nap, cause I had a fight or flight response, and I know it wasn’t mine, had to be because of Granny or Mama’s health. Granny has diabetes and Mama is on the verge if she doesn’t have it already. Usually I get a feeling about something going on in my family’s life, and know to call them and check on them. The Lord has given me this gift, and I try to make sure all of them are okay.

       I didn’t recognize it today, and thought it was me, so I took my Metformin and went to sleep. I still have the feeling of fight or flight now, and have called both Granny and Mama and have talked to both of them, so I’m just praying that Mama goes and gets that Diabetes test this week, cause I think she’s done switched from hypoglocemia to diabetes now.

       Daddy is still at the camp, but he’s coming home tonight, soon, but I really hope he stays there if he’s sleepy, although it would be good for him to be home with Mama too, and wake up and see us at home in the morning. Still, it’s late, and he might just do better to stay there tonight. I’m staying up til I get a text that he has made it home.

       Brian and I have gone through a lot of changes this week, and I know Mama and Daddy, and maybe even Uncle Jay have all really missed us at work too while we’ve been gone. It’s going to be a challenge tomorrow to get us all back together, and I feel for sure our changes will rub off onto them as well, and we will all grow together this week, and for the duration. May God grant us the Grace, Mercy, Patience, Understanding, and Peace that we will all need this week to come through it all together.

       Brian is in there brushing his teeth, and we are getting ready for bed, just waiting on a text from Mama or Daddy. All I can say is that knucklehead better hurry up and leave camp or go to sleep before too long, or I’m going to be up for a while.

       Brian has quit smoking, cause he felt so bad yesterday after a day long puff of cigarette smoke. He smoked 12, the most he’s ever smoked in his life, and felt like crap. I think I saw him smoke 1 or 2 today, but I also saw him dipping, so I don’t think he’s going to wholeheartedly make the switch, and I am glad for that.

       I feel for sure I would feel better as well, if I quit smoking. And I will, it won’t be long.

       I talked to Brian, and we have definitely decided to go ahead with children at 170.  So my countdown now starts with 210 days, 30 weeks, Day 1 starts Tuesday, with my weigh in. I would start tomorrow, but I didn’t take a fluid pill today, and I just know I’m full of salt. Okay, okay, I’ll start tomorrow morning. And I start back walking tomorrow too. So Monday morning everything starts back, with a different countdown. I just hope I weigh 230.6 or less tomorrow morning, but we will see.

       I have to lose 60 pounds, and then I will have reached my goal. I’m not worried about being skinny Minnie for a while, I want babies, and I can lose weight and be healthy for them afterwards.

       I just don’t want to be big as a house when I’m pregnant, because I probably will be anyway, because twins runs in my family. My great grandmother or aunt was a twin on the Garley side, and there have already been born two sets of twins in my generation thus far right now.

       I would love to have twins, and it doesn’t even matter the sexes of them. Brian is a twin, and his mother is a twin, so isn’t it just fitting that he would marry someone with twins running in their family?

       Tomorrow I plan on getting started with putting all the numbers into the spreadsheets like we talked about week before last, if they are all up to it, cause they’ve had a long few months as well, and I know last week was hard on everyone with us not being there.

       I feel for Brian, having to answer all the phones, and I plan on helping him some and troubleshooting where I can, and getting Daddy to set up the Network on my computer, if he will.

       I’m looking forward to tomorrow, because I can’t look back at yesterday or even today for that matter. All I know is to look forward to the future, and keep going, and planning, and doing. It’s hard to do right now, and I will just take it one day at a time, and pray Brian and the rest of the family do the same.

       I’ve grown so much in the past week, more than anybody or even me knows. Brian too.

       We were talking about Hollywood actors and how I really don’t like anyone but Mel Gibson. Why is it that Alec Baldwin can call his daughter a little pig, yet Mel Gibson can’t clearly give his opinion on Jews and others? I mean, Alec Baldwin got off scott free, and even got a new show, and became even more popular, where Mel Gibson has been completely black balled from the public. Doesn’t make any sense to me. Alec hurt his own family, Mel Gibson didn’t hurt anyone. You know what that tells me? There’s a lot of people out there hurting their own family, and gave him a pass, cause they’ve done the same thing.

       We’re not watching Lost tonight for a change, but have opted for Pirates of the Caribbean. We usually start on the first one, watch it over and over, and then go to the second, third, and fourth, doing the same for all of them. Actually I think Brian started on this movie yesterday, but it doesn’t surprise me that we are watching it again tonight. That’s just Brian, he’ll watch them over and over.