July 31, 2012

    It's Tuesday afternoon, 4:15pm. I'm sitting at Mama and Daddy's house, wanting some coffee, but drinking a c-o-k-e instead.

    Now I realize that I shouldn't be drinking a coke. And I realize that they are 140 calories, but it's either that or some peanuts, and they are 220 calories, and I have a real drink fix, and wanted something sweet, so this is the tradeoff.

    Brian tried to eat a honeybun, and I had to pry it out a twinkie out of his fingers. Those things are around 400-500 calories, and only make you hungrier. But he relented, and didn't eat it, but was mad at me for drinking a coke.

    So far today, I've had a protein shake (340), a little beef jerky (50), Campbell's soup ( 240 ), and this coke (140), coffee (200). That totals up to (970).

    If I eat anything else today, it will be another soup, or some beef jerky at around 6pm, and I will walk too!

    Well, Brian did eat that twinkie. I let him, cause it was only 150 calories, and here I was drinking a 140 calorie coke.

    We just weighed, at home, at 4:50pm, and the verdict is that I have lost 3.5 pounds and Brian has lost 4.

    That means I've still got 116.5 to lose, and Brian still has 30 pounds to lose.

    I can't celebrate just yet, can't do the chicken dance, and although it is a victory, it is a small one, and verifies that we are doing the right things. Nothing to get all excited about just yet, cause I still got a lot of work to do.

    But that scale does make me happy today. Just gotta reset, and do it again for another week, one week at a time.

    Brian and I said a prayer together, asking God for help, to do just that, and to put another determination in us, just as strong as the first week, to keep us going and strong. It's gonna be a brand new week tomorrow, and I don't even think we should weigh tomorrow morning, to start fresh and determined.

    I gotta say, either the walking is wearing me out, or my body was already tired from being so overweight, and the walking is just bringing it to my attention. Probably the latter.

    I am so grateful to all my facebook friends, for all their prayers and support this past week.

    I am hoping to be an encouragement as I have been encouraged, and it has really helped me a lot.

    I haven't got to write today, except for this blog, and I probably won't write the rest of the day.

    My house needs to be cleaned, I have really let it get out of hand. So that's what we are going to do the rest of the evening, and walk, if I can get Brian off the Playstation.

    I already feel hope and renewal, and determination from my God, Lord, and Savior, Jesus Christ, who is Faithful, and Encouraging my spirit.

    Gotta finish the day out, eating very little, and walk. God is still helping me fall out of love with food, and resolve any weight issues I have, as I have put it totally in His hands, because they are too big for me to even begin to know how to solve. In Him I place my Faith and Trust.

    This is a long road, but as Brian said, it will be worth it in the end.