August 27th, 2012 – Monday
5:02am
It’s Monday
morning, and Mr. Sully is already up and got to jumping. He’s chasing green
tree frogs on our sliding glass doors, but not catching them, cause his little
kitty self can’t go outside without supervision.
I’m making
coffee, and blogging, and Brian has another hour before he has to get up. I was
having horribly ungrateful dreams, and I hate it when I do that. I woke up and
the clock said 4:58, so I got up on time this morning.
I’ve got to walk
first thing, go ahead and get that over with, since we are mowing the yard this
evening. It’s going to be a feat, cause the yard is so high, and we’ve still
got that glass to pick up from the patio table breaking in the storm 2 weeks
ago. I don’t know that we’ll ever get all those shards up.
I really want
one of those coffee pots that holds your coffee and keeps it warm, but doesn’t
have to be plugged in, so I can bring it to the table with me, and not have to
get up every time I want a cup of coffee. Kinda like a teapot, but one that
holds heat. I don’t know if they even make those. I’ve seen silver serving
pots, and that’s pretty much what I’m looking for, I’ll just have to look
around and see what I can see. It’d be good if it was thermal.
I can’t believe
it’s Monday already, a week later. Brian and I are just going to pick up from
today, and not even worry about last week or the week before, because there’s
no way we can catch up on all that, and looking back over the week is just
hurtful. We start from today, and move forward.
The scale said
234.4 this morning, and I know that is incorrect, cause I just haven’t eaten
enough food to put me there. So I’m taking my fluid pill, and going to weigh
again tomorrow morning, and get started from there. Today is Day 211, Week 30,
Day 1.
We decided last
night, to have a protein shake for breakfast, soup for lunch, and that
egg/broccoli/cheese thingy out of my low cal cookbook for dinner. I’ve got all
the ingredients from 2 weeks ago, and I need to cook it, before my broccoli
goes bad.
I’m going to get
on the treadmill at 6:30, so that gives me an hour to do whatever I want, and
my kitchen desperately needs to be
cleaned, but I’m still thinking about sewing this morning. It would be really
nice this evening to come home to a clean kitchen though, so I might just do
that. Or I might just sit here and blog, and get on facebook.
It’s just still
so hard. I catch myself pausing more, just pausing. I’ll finish a thought, and
then pause before going on. I guess that’s a good thing though, because my mind
isn’t moving from one thing to another so quickly. But it’s like I’m dazed and
confused. I know and trust it will get better though.
11:48 am
Well I did get
most of the kitchen cleaned before work. I ran out of dishwashing liquid, so I
had to stop, because like almost all dishwashers, I pretty much have to knock
the stuck on crud off before I put them to wash, and I had some serious stuck
on crud. What can I say? Brian and his rotel dip….
I walked for 10
minutes this morning as well, and I haven’t felt that good or that strong in a
while. I started getting a little disoriented, maybe because of the endorphins?
I don’t know why, but I stopped at 10 minutes. It might be my meds too, I think
I may need a lower dose now. I’ll have to talk to the Dee on Wednesday at 9am,
and see what she thinks about it. I see Dr. Carter in about 2 more months, so
if he thinks it’s a good idea, I’d like to lower my dose, and see how good I
do.
I even had time
to finish Brian’s squares (except for the Georgia ones) this morning. And I
just ordered his Georgia fabric, so it should be in a few days from now.
We made it to
work on time, but I was disoriented from the medication I think, so I went and
took a nap, until 10 am. Daddy was here when I got up, and we talked about
doing the spreadsheets a little bit, and the first phone call I answered was
the man from the well service in Winnsboro, and it turned out that he would do
it for half the price the other man quoted, so we’re going to get him out to do
it, if we can get ahold of him again, which we should, because I left him a
message already, and have called him two times. Next time I call him, I’m
calling from the office phone though, because he probably doesn’t recognize my
cell number. I don’t blame him, I don’t answer calls I don’t recognize either,
and I never check my voicemail.
Mr. Don Englerth
came by and him and Daddy played on the computer a bit, some web page they are
both interested in, and he just left just now on his Harley. Him and Daddy are
going to ride bikes later on this afternoon, before it starts raining with the
Hurricane later on this week. It’s pretty good weather for it, dang bugs
everywhere though, but that’s why they got a helmet.
Brian is doing
really good today, he hasn’t missed a phone call, just working as hard as he
ever has, and visiting with everyone. He’s not up to spirits just yet, but he’s
doing what he needs to do, and I know how hard it must be for him today.
It’ll get
easier, every day that passes, and we’ve all fallen back in the swing of things
together this morning. We’re drinking coffee, and they are all eating biscuits,
and I’ve got my protein shakes, everything physical is back in the routine.
Daddy was
holding Ms. Gracie like a baby, and I know he needs some grandchildren, cause
that dog is his baby like no dog I’ve ever seen be one. I told him it’d be when
I reach 170 pounds, and he didn’t say anything, but he didn’t say anything
either way, so that’s good that he didn’t say no, because they have said no
before, on account of my mental health.
I’ve got to sit
down a minute tonight, and write thank you cards to Mrs. Pat, Aunt MaryBeth,
Aunt Becky & Uncle Joe, and Mama & Daddy, for all they did for us last
week. I bought some pretty cards at Walmart on Saturday, and I’ve got them
here, but I want the notes to be thoughtful, so I feel that I’m going to need
some peace and quiet to write them, and really say thank you.
I get really
excited about sending letters in the mail, because I’m in love with handwritten
letters, and have been ever since I was born I think. I used to write to Uncle
Jay and Aunt Angel when he was in Colorado in the Army, and I was only in the 1st
grade, or younger. I had a pen pal for a while, and then I lost touch. I’ve had
pen pals through the years, though. I feel that this blog could be a pen pal to
the world.
So to write
these thank yous, I’ve got to be calm and considerate, and it’s going to take
some time, and thought, and thoroughness.
2:43PM
Brian and I just
got back from Delhi. We had to run to the post office, get gas for the
lawnmower, go to the bank, and pick up a few groceries for Mama. On the way
back, I began to feel that oh so familiar guilt about getting on with my life.
When I got back, the only thing I could do, was go to the bedroom, and place it
in Jesus hands, because it will eat me alive, like it did with Daniel. Thanks
to my merciful Savior and Lord, he took that guilt, and I am getting on with my
life, and our life, mine and Brian, in Christ Jesus.
We have started
putting numbers into my Google Documents now, and we have gotten the A’s done
for the North Network, and only have to put in the tower names, which we are
working on at this point, until Brian received a trouble call, and he is
working on that now.
Oh the Love and
Mercy of Jesus, that covers everything, and How I Love HIM.
Daddy’s back,
and working on some trouble in Start. Mama is helping him, and hopefully they
will get it back up running correctly very soon.
Today I’ve got
on my LSU tshirt, Brian’s ESPN fleece pj pants, and some pink fuzzy house shoes
of Mama’s. I’m just a hodgepodge today, borrowing clothes here and there. I”ve
got my hair up in a clip, and no makeup, but I’ve got my jewelry on, earrings,
necklace, and rings, and I am very comfortable.
I should have
worn makeup today, I look better with it on, but I didn’t feel like having
something on my face early this morning, and now I do. I knew I should have
brought it with me this morning, and thought about it, but didn’t do it.
I think I’m
going to walk again tonight, because I’m feeling kinda hyper, and need to get
on that treadmill and burn off some of this energy.
So far today
I’ve had a protein shake (340) and a Route 44 coke, which I didn’t finish
(350) and coffee (200) = 900 calories for the day, thus far.
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