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August 7^th, 2012-4:17 am

            It’s Tuesday Morning! And Hallelujah I have lost another 2 pounds, and Brian has lost 2.5!

   
         I woke Brian up before 5am, just so he could see what he weighed, cause I am so excited.

            After yesterday’s heartbreak on the scale, I’m kinda in disbelief that I really lost another 2 pounds, but I know I did, and I am just thankful that it is all true.

            So that’s 6 pounds for me and 7 for Brian! And if I really want to get technical, that makes 20 pounds for me since April. Gotta lose another 20! But I’ll start with 5, this week.

            Brian’s done got back in the bed, he says it’s too early, but he’s only got another hour to sleep, so why even bother when he’s already up?

            Well he finally got up at 5:15, after much coercion. Sully helped me get him out of bed by 
attacking his feet under the covers. Hims such a little help.

            I’m really thinking we need to take before and after pictures, in swimsuits. I don’t own a bikini, so that’s going to be kinda tough, so I may end up taking it in my underwear, or go buy a bikini on sale at walmart, just for that purpose. Brian agrees, so I’m going to walmart today, to buy one. I hope they have a cute one. I might buy two, one big and one small.

            I’m looking at April, for me to have lost all this weight. By my birthday, I should be really really small. I’m really looking forward to my 32^nd birthday.

            That leaves me 114.5 pounds left to lose. If I lose 2 pounds a week, that’s 57 weeks from today. By next September I should have lost all the weight, at the very latest, that is, losing 2 pounds a week. Which, hopefully I will lose 3-4 or even 5 some weeks. We shall see.

            I’m trying not to get too excited, I’m just so RELIEVED all that was fluid and I didn’t blow my diet. It’s still a long road, but it’s getting a little easier, taking it one day at a time, and I know that the Lord is helping me, really pulling me through.

            I’m almost getting excited every day to see how low I can get my calorie count, excited to see how good I do each day.

            Today we are going to have oatmeal for breakfast, as suggested by my very good friend, and pal, Jessie Christman Ortego. Oatmeal, raisins, banana, peanut butter, all mixed up with sweet and low, and spray butter. This should be really good, and very low cal. I did exactly what she said and bought the 100 calorie packs of oatmeal. It took some looking, but I was thinking of her asking her, “where’s the 100 calorie packs Jessie?” I could hear her say “keep looking, it’s there you’ll find it” , and sure enough I found them. It was just regular Quaker oatmeal, and it said 100 calories on the box.

            Jessie’s been through weight loss, and she walks everyday 2 miles a day. She’s pregnant with her 2^nd child, and is so excited, and I’m excited for her! She is such a blessing to everyone around her, and I know her kids will be too!

            I think we are going to walk this morning, and at about 6am, I’m going to get on the treadmill. I guess Brian will too, if I can blast his butt out of the chair, but I am definitely walking this morning. It really gets my day started off the right way.

            114.5 left to go. I am doing this now. This is happening now. This is Now. This is the rest of my life.

            Gotta take it one day at a time. Today is all I’ve got. Gotta make the effort, gotta stay on track. Don’t get too excited. Gotta stay motivated. Save that excitement for the week.

            This is not the end. This is only the 2^nd week. Got 57 weeks left. 399 days left. And I know they will go by so fast! Gotta get to moving. Gotta get to working. Gotta take one day at a time. Can’t take that 399 days in one chunk. Today is day 399. Let’s chart my progress today. And take it one day at a time.

            For all my weight loss buddies, and all who are trying to lose weight, I highly suggest a blog. IT helps so much, whether you like to write or not. If you don’t want to publish it, I suggest a journal. You might find you like keeping track. It’s a journey, and definitely should be recorded.

August 7^th -8:57am

            I’m feeling a lot of pressure on me now, to succeed, and continue this blog.  This morning, I made my blog accessable on Google +, and that will probably broaden my readership.

            Not that I mind the pressure, cause I don’t. It could be pressure from myself, but that’s nothing new.

            At 6:30, I decided it was time to walk. So I got on the treadmill, and burned 100 calories, in about 16 minutes.  Brian was not feeling like walking this morning, but I blasted his butt out of the chair, and he agreed to walk while I showered.

            We got dressed, fed the dogs and cats, and left for work.

            I put my make up on in the car, which I usually do at Mama’s, but today there are a few men outside working, and I didn’t want everybody staring at me.

            When we got there, I was hungry, first thing, so I took out my items that I packed: oatmeal, peanut butter, banana, raisins, spray butter; and started making the oatmeal.

            I knew Brian had said that he didn’t want raisins in his, but he said he did like raisins, so I figured he needed to try it before he  knocked it, so I put them in there anyway.

            It didn’t take long to make, maybe 5 minutes, and the clever people at Quaker oatmeal even make the package to measure how much milk needs to go in the oatmeal before I microwaved it.

            Daddy was up this morning, and showed me a picture of the 18 wheeler that is about to buy. I told him I liked it, and then me and Brian sat down for breakfast.

            Mama and Daddy never eat breakfast until about 11 oclock, but Daddy did comment that the oatmeal looked good. I didn’t offer to make him any, he would’ve turned it down anyway.  I’m hoping maybe Mama will want to make some one of these days, but that’s totally up to her, and I’m not forcing anyone to do anything anymore, because people do what they want to do, regardless. I know I do.

            Uncle Jay came in about that time, and Brian proceeded to tell him that I woke him up at 5am, and that he had a secret that he had told me, that he had been married before, and that his wife had woken him up early in the mornings, and that he had killed her and she was now dead. Of course, I’m Brian’s first and only wife, and he was just joking.

            I checked Facebook for a while, and now I’m thinking about getting up and doing some stretches, and waist exercises. I couldn’t be more determined than I am now. It’s almost scary how determined I am.

            So I bow my head to pray, and ask God for help, to help me handle this determination, and give Him all things, because He is the Only One Who Can.

           

3:30pm

            It’s Tuesday afternoon at the Dearman’s.

            After breakfast this morning, I felt really tired, so I took a 3 hour nap at about 10 oclock, and slept til 1pm.  When I got up, I knew it was time for lunch, and that Brian was probably hungry, so I got out our Sweet and Sour Chicken from last night, and fixed us each a plate.

            Neither one of us ate very much, it wasn’t the best, and we were really expecting it to be better. I’m not saying we will never eat it again, because we might get a hankering, but we left a lot in the bowl, and gave what we didn’t eat on our plates, to the chickens.

            Mama needed us to go to the bank for her, and to get her tire fixed on her truck, and I was a bit reluctant to go, but Mama bribed me with a Sonic Diet Coke, so I went.

            We went by Sonic, and I ordered a Diet Coke with Vanilla, and then we went to the bank. They’ve got a new girl in there, and she’s very nice. I like it when tellers are nice, cause they sure aren’t at some places in Monroe.

            On the way to the tire shop, we passed by the gym, and I was so thankful that we have our own treadmill, and don’t have to drive 30 minutes to the gym every day and 30 minutes back. It is so nice to have our own treadmill at home, because I would get pissed off every day I went to the gym. People beside me would be walking slow, or would be racing me, and it just mad e me so mad. I need peace and relaxation, and that’s exactly what we got when we bought a treadmill and put it in Brian’s mancave.

            We stopped at Michael’s Tire, and I went inside to see Lisa, the owner and manager of the shop. She was doing good, and we talked for a while, until our tire got fixed. That won’t be the last time I see Lisa, thankfully.

            I was in the visiting mood, so I decided I needed to go up to Delhi Glass too, and see my old friends up there. Mama had a flash drive that she was giving to Daphne, so I took that and went up there.

            When I walked in the door, I yelled, “where’s the coffee?”. Ginger wanted some too, so she made some, and we visited for a while, and I gave Daphne her flashdrive. I’m going to have to go up there more often too, cause I love those people.

            So today so far, I’ve had Oatmeal (100) raisins (50) Banana (50) milk (100) (all mixed together)  beef jerky (100) sweet and sour chicken (200) coffee (300) = (1000)- 100 calorie burned walk = (900).

            I’m thinking about getting up and stretching now, and doing some waist exercises. We’ve got 10  minutes before it’s time to go home, and I think we can fit that in that amount of time.

8:56pm

            I feel very good tonight. I just took my meds, and it’s about time for bed. I’m going to sleep good tonight.

            Brian and I decided to get up early each morning and walk, because we really felt the difference in our bodies today. At one point, it felt like my body was in a strain, and I really really felt like I needed to drink some water.

            I haven’t had water in days, and I’m learning how important it is that my body get pure 100% water. I drink everything from coffee to diet drinks, but it’s  just not the same as water. As soon as I got home, I broke out a bottle, and I plan on drinking water all during the day, in addition to the other drinks I drink, and if everything goes well, in replacement of those drinks.

            I know they say water is a natural diuretic, and that’s great, but I am drinking it because I really feel that my body really really needs it to keep going, and get healthy.

            When we got home this evening, Brian sat down to watch the Braves game, and I decided it was time for dinner, because we were both hungry. He picked out a steak sandwich from our Better Homes and Gardens Low-Cal cookbook, and it was only supposed to have 323 calories.

            I was supposed to use sirloin steak, but I didn’t have any, so I used cube steak instead. I microwaved the sundried tomatoes, seasoned the steak and set it onto broil for about 12 minutes a side, topped it with onions, and mixed up the tomato, chopped onion, light mayo and mustard concoction. I put it all on a whole wheat bagel (250 calories, will shop for a lighter one next time), added lettuce, topped it with the cube steak and broiled onions, and topped that with the concoction. I figure one sandwich was probably around 500-550 calories, now that I think about it.

            I didn’t eat the whole thing, and had 2 potato chips, which adds up to about 20 calories. I figure I had 350 calories all together.

            So my total for the day is Oatmeal (100) Banana (50) Raisins (50) Milk (100) Sweet and sour chicken (300) beef jerky (100) coffee (300) Steak Sandwich (350) = 1350, minus the walk (100) = 1250

            We didn’t walk this evening, I was just too worn out, and I really don’t want to press my body in an unhealthy way, because I love my body. The weight will come off, by cutting calories, and doing as much exercise as I feel that I can do, without putting a strain on my body.

            The calories cutting alone will cause us to lose weight, as proven last week, when we only walked 1 day of the week. With exercise, it will go by faster, I am sure of it. We are also keeping our vow, of walking every day without fail, and will continue to keep it, with God’s hand upon us. \

            I’m making coffee now, and I’m really  not sure how much creamer I put in my coffee, I only know that it’s a lot, and I probably have more than I’m counting, but  maybe not. I know it’s 40 calories per 2 tbsp of creamer, and I haven’t been measuring, just dumping it in there. Starting now, with this pot, I will measure my creamer, and keep up with it. With a precise measurement of creamer, I can count my calories correctly, and possibly cut more as needed. And hey, it might get me to drink more water as I go along.

            The Lord my God, Jesus, has been so very good to me and Brian in the past 2 weeks. He has been encouraging me in spirit, and upholding the love that I feel for myself and for Him, and for others as well. I am so blessed to be who I am, and to have him as my Savior, for life, for eternity, an eternity that goes far beyond this life.

            I am persuaded that we will succeed in this endeavor, and that the Lord my God is in control of all things, as I was reminded this afternoon by Bobbi Ann. He is trustworthy, and faithful to remember me daily, and I love him and trust Him with all that I have in me, with every breath, for He makes me breathe, He gave me life, and He lives forever and ever, and always will.