August 8th, 2012 – 5:54 am
Wednesday morning, early.

Thank God He woke me up at 5am, cause if I would’ve gotten up any later, I wouldn’t have had time to wake up, walk, and shower this morning!

It’s a good morning here in Louisiana. I haven’t been outside today, it’s still dark, but maybe it’s a little bit cooler today than it was yesterday. I just pray to the Lord, Jesus, that it doesn’t get any hotter, because it is already too hot!

I have a cousin and friend in either Arizona or New Mexico, and that’s in the desert. I can’t even imagine how hot it is outside over there. She’s biking around 5 miles a day, and I don’t see how she’s doing it in this heat! My prayer is that she not over work herself, and stay healthy, cause that heat can really take a toll on a person. And it’s August, so it’s the hottest month of the year.

I have a bike too, and it’s tires need to be aired up, and this fall I might just get out there and ride it a little bit. She has inspired me. It’s got to be fun, because she does it every day, and you won’t do anything every day that isn’t fun.

Brian got up at 5am with me, but he’s pretty much asleep in the chair, and I am wired. I must be a morning person. Who knew?

Sully is on the coffee table looking for that cup of sugar free sweet tea that had been sitting there for several days, and it’s gone now, because we cleaned the living room yesterday evening. I wonder if caffeine is bad for cats, cause he sure is looking for it. He’s got water, he just wants the sweet tea.

I took my blood sugar this morning for the first time in a while in the morning, and it was 106. Daddy said normal range is 90-110, so I’m doing good. Last night I took it for the first time in a long while too, and it was 84, which is really low, so I had to drink some sweet tea, because I didn’t have any orange juice.

In about 20 m inutes, we are going to get up and walk, probably in less than that, because we both have to take showers this morning.

I talked to Granny last night, and she was feeling better. Hopefully she will move in with Mama soon. I don’t like her being there by herself. On top of that, I just know that when the time is exactly right, God will move her into Mama’s house, and she will be a blessing to everyone, as she already is. I completely trust the Lord and His timing.

I’m going over to her home today at 10am, and taking her lunch, from what we had last night. She’s trying the recipes out of the cookbook she gave me, with us, she tried the sweet and sour chicken last night. She’s got diabetes too, and we’ve all really got to watch that.

I feel love this morning, as I think of getting on the treadmill. Love for myself, and most importantly love for others. I know before when I tried to lose weight, it would be such a push, such a  mean determination, and I didn’t even realize it. That’s why I knew it wasn’t time for me. When I finally decided to do it, I prayed to the Lord, and asked Him to please help me lose weight, but to help me lose it in love.  He knew the process I had been using previously wasn’t going to make me a better person, it might make me mean, and hateful, and completely cocky. I want to stay myself, I want to love others and myself, and I want to do it with love in my heart, because Love conquers all, and I will remain myself, and even grow as a person while I’m doing it, not move away from God, or from others.
So really search yourselves. How are you doing this? Are you doing it in love? Or are you doing it
in hate? Love is the only way to do it, and the only way you can. God knows what is best for us, and He knows what will cause us to grow, or to go backwards in Him, and He’s not letting any of us get away from Him, He has put in too much time, love, and dedication into each of our lives, and our growing processes.

My prayer is that if you haven’t searched yourselves and your hearts, and your moods, and your feelings, that you do so this morning, and ask God to really show you what I mean by doing it in love. My prayer is that He show you, and I trust if you are sincere, He will definitely do just that, because He is the faithful one.

August 8th, 2012
1:01pm

I don’t feel too good today. My head is spinning a little bit. My pulse was 121 this morning, and I got a little bit worried. I just took an aspirin, so hopefully it will stop spinning soon.

It cant be my diabetes, I took my medicine this morning, and ate plenty of protein this afternoon for lunch. I don’t have any idea what it could be, other than effects of weight loss with my meds.

Brian and I both got up at 5 am this morning, Thank the Lord, because He wakes me up every morning, at just the right time.

I tried to post my blog first thing, but my computer kept saying there was an error publishing it, and it was just up until a few minutes ago, I was actually able to post it, and found about 7 drafts of the same thing on there as well, that I had to delete.

I drank coffee until about 6:30am, while Brian slept in his/my chair. He couldn’t wake up really this morning, so I made him get on the treadmill before me, so that he could get up and moving, and wake himself up. It worked, and after he walked for 15 minutes, I got up and did the same thing, a little over, cause I burned 100 calories.

After each workout, I usually slow down when I’m about to reach my calorie count goal, and cool down those last couple calories. But I got to thinking, that’s no way to win a race! You run through the finish line! So I kept going strong, and sped up, until I reach the 100 calories, and then slowed down and did my cool down.

I got dressed after that, and today I am wearing one of my new vests, and it matches perfectly with the shirt I’ve got on. I was going to return all my new clothes from J. Jill, cause they aren’t going to fit in December and January when I’m going to need them(they are all winter clothes, well, most of them), but I decided not to, because they are so wearable, and I can always give them to my Granny or my Mama, although they will be loose. Some people wear 2 sizes too big for that loose effect. Some people like it. Besides, some of them are tight on me now, so they will fit nicely on them, unless they lose some weight too.

We got to Mama and Daddy’s, and I checked facebook to see how all my friends were doing, and everyone seems to be trucking along just fine, with a few prayer requests. I love that my friends pray, and ask for help. God is totally in their lives, and I pray that He continue leading all of us, and places His hand upon us, and helps us continue to grow in Him.

At about 9:30, I left to go over to Granny’s, and I visited with her a while. I left there and went to Delhi, to get Brian some dip.

When I got back, everyone was fine, and we decided it was time to eat brisket, which we did, and a lot of it. Granny had made some rolls and had brought them over yesterday, so I had one of those with some brisket, plus some more brisket by itself. I’d say I had 700 calories, maybe less.

On the way over to Granny’s, I began thinking that I must be pregnant, things are going so great for me now, what could have caused this? When I bought the pregnancy test, it said not pregnant. I was relieved, because of the medicines I take.

I feel so happy, so very happy. I can’t handle all of this happiness on my own, so I bow my head to pray, and share with Jesus these good things, as well.

I can’t handle all of the good things He is blessing me with, on my own.

August 8th, 2012

7:36pm

It was so chaotic at the Dearman household all day! There were phones ringing inside, Daddy, Mama, and Uncle Jay working hard to get the towers up and running again, and people outside building the new room for Daddy’s mancave. There were probably 10 people at the house all day long! We even had a visit from Delhi Glass, and I was glad to see Robert and Keith.

I tried to take a nap at about 12 oclock, but couldn’t, because the phones wouldn’t stop ringing, so I’m without my nap today, and I do feel a little bit cranky, but I’m trying to keep my mood stable, and my spirits up. I just don’t feel that I have the luxury to be cranky. Besides, there’s too much to be joyous about!

At 2 oclock, I called Aunt Mary Beth to see if she got my message yesterday about coming over today, and she had, and said it was good to come over right then.

I visited with Aunt MB for a little while over a cup of coffee and a couple of cigarettes, and then I left, and came back to the Dearman’s.

Daddy wasn’t feeling good at all today, and I checked on him when I got back, and then I started thinking about Grandma and Grandpa, and decided to head over to their house, for a quick visit.

When I got back, it was 4 oclock, one hour left in the workday, and then we could go home.

I wasn’t hungry, but I felt so stressed and tired, seeing as I only got 4 hours of sleep last night, which isn’t good at all, and is probably why I’m feeling like this today. Brian and I had stayed up talking last night, until midnight, and then we got up at 5, and it takes me a while to go to sleep.

The workday finally ended, but we stayed a little while longer, talking to Mama about work vans for Uncle Jay to drive, and looking online.

When we finally got home, I was so exhausted, and Brian was so stressed, I knew we must get on the treadmill and work it off. Brian got on first, because he was the most stressed, and he walked 41 minutes to relieve it. I sat there with him, and we had the radio on Hit Country, you know, old country hits, and we both sang along, and gave all our kitties and puppies, except Peaches, music lessons. Peaches had been hiding out, and didn’t join us. She will eventually get her music lesson too though.

After Brian, I started on the treadmill, and my legs just hurt. In a split decision, I decided it was best to not wear myself out, and ruin tomorrow morning’s workout tonight, by overdoing it. Instead, I got off the treadmill, and we stretched. I’m seriously thinking of adding a non spiritual yoga to my workout routine. Stretching really relaxes me, and builds endurance, flexibility, strength, improves posture, breathing, so many benefits from yoga. I have the Biggest Loser Yoga DVD, and I’m seriously thinking about getting that thing out right now and doing it

I ate a salad tonight, with lettuce (0) broccoli (0) mushrooms (0) tomato (0) shredded carrots (0), and even if these things have some in them, I’m going to say 50 calories for the whole thing, because it was a very small bowl and I didn’t even finish it. But I did add a little cheese, and it’s 100 calories for ¼ cup, and my dressing was 0 calories, found it at Fiesta Nutrition, so my salad was 100 calories.

So today, at the end of the day, coffee (200) protein shake  (340) (and this is the kind you buy from walmart, cheap) brisket (500) rolls (200) salad (100) = (1340) plus some sweet tea (300) and vanilla in my diet coke (100)=(1740) minus walk this morning (1640)

Gotta quit drinking all those drinks.